Last years post!

Friday, March 28, 2008

*****(I wrote this last year right after I found out that my father had passed away in his sleep He was almost 85 years old and was not sick really, just getting old. I read this again after I wrote my last post and thought I would include on this day.)****

Death is a funny thing...

I am writing this just a few hours after learning that my Dad died, I want to cry, I want to laugh but most of all I want to remember his love! He was always holding my hand when I went to see him which was very few times in the past year. It was so hard to see him he didn't smell good and he was actually not the dad that I remembered. However he was my dad and I am glad I saw him on Easter Sunday. I told him he looked liked Howard Hughes because his fingernails grew out very long and he had a scruffy face but he had showered and he was clean so I kissed "Howard" bye thinking I would go and see him again soon. However soon will never be and for this I am a bit sad. The kids at least got to see there grandfather one last day. For this I am happy! Death is a funny thing! One minute you are sad the next thing is you have a smile on your face over some silly times. I'll write more later, Its time to cry!