It is 3:44 A.M and I can't sleep! Ryan is on his first camp out with the men and boys from the ward. I have completely cleaned out my kitchen, cleaned the floors and now have decided to post to my blog and share this. I miss him so much. Just not having him at home is so very weird to me. To make it worse we are having really strong gusts of winds and he is up in Mt Charleston and we know how the mountains can be. He called at midnight, he said he was getting ready to go to sleep and wanted to make sure we put the dogs away and locked up the house, this is his nightly job. I told him we did and he then went on to tell me that the wind, being out in a tent and in nature was very soothing to him. (I think it is because he was born in Lake Tahoe and it's in his blood) This made me feel better.... I love the mountains so I understand this feeling. However he is not safely tucked in his bed, in his room and it leaves me with an emptiness I can't really explain. Yet I know he is safe and with people he has known since he was 4 years old and they love him. Is this how our Father in Heaven feels? How he trusts me with his spirits ....makes me feel like my calling as a mother to two of his spirits is much more then just making sure all is well...it is much deeper then that. My thoughts at this time turn to the growth I am having as a daughter of God and the trust he has given to me as a mother to Ryan and Summer, as they grow into adult hood.
"I stand all amazed at the love Jesus offers me......."
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